It is a cool day today, not even June and we feel Fall coming. I love Fall, maybe even more than Spring. The mud can get anyone down. However Fall is colorful leaves, candles, walks uninterrupted by pesky flies and a million other delights.
Today; we have laundry, dishes, lunch to do and time to relax. Does anyone else seem to have to make it a point to do so? To make time to let go...to just sit back and enjoy. Enjoyment is all the time, clean laundry, fresh brownies from the oven, kids smiling faces over dinner - sharing a joke only we know and so much more. Lots and lots of times though it seems that I am moving while doing this - serving lunch, handing out laundry to put away instead of just sitting a bit. It almost feels guilty. Why?
Things I'm thankful for;
Cool mornings
snuggles from boys
husbands whispered affections
pumpkin pie
early birds singing
6/29/11
6/27/11
Hospitality
I write this because it has to go somewhere. This conviction, this pride must be purged. Being beaten over the head by a loving God, listening to others speak and share, watching it lived out in others lives - all the while stepping back and saying no. At least in my head. What hit today was what harm it is doing our own family. We are not your 'out there' kind of people. You will find us in the corners, hoping you don't see us. We wish you all the very best....as long as you stay, over there.
My home is not good enough, our yard not neat enough, my kids not polite enough. Not good, not good. I stop a second to wonder. Isn't that why I'm called precious child? Saved heir of grace? To what? Say, 'not good enough'? So is say NO to pride, lack of contentment - out you go, begone. These are the things that need purged. To say YES! Come over, share a meal, we have PLENTY and GOD blesses us with an abundance, the least we can do ( and just so happens to be something I LOVE to do) is eat and share. So watch out you Moms and Dad's I admire, the young ladies and gents that I know your face and pray for but keep you at arms length. God is at work....and I'm working on hospitality.
My home is not good enough, our yard not neat enough, my kids not polite enough. Not good, not good. I stop a second to wonder. Isn't that why I'm called precious child? Saved heir of grace? To what? Say, 'not good enough'? So is say NO to pride, lack of contentment - out you go, begone. These are the things that need purged. To say YES! Come over, share a meal, we have PLENTY and GOD blesses us with an abundance, the least we can do ( and just so happens to be something I LOVE to do) is eat and share. So watch out you Moms and Dad's I admire, the young ladies and gents that I know your face and pray for but keep you at arms length. God is at work....and I'm working on hospitality.
4/10/11
Months of stretching
Been a bit since I last posted, amazing what lives we live and how they change. Sometimes bit by bit and others by leaps that hurt and are exhilarating all at the same time. I read this book recently and it seemed to be an answer to those nagging questions rolling around in my head. What is true happiness? Am I doing all I can for God, serving Him with everything I have? Why do I feel as though life sometimes slips through my fingers with missed opportunities?
Recently joy has been my word to go to, to live life with joy. This has worked well, until I get tired, till I feel like I'm the only one with joy and everyone else is just draining me till I'm a dry hollow shell. Then, well it can get ugly. The answer is not so easy to get to...and yet SO simple. Instead of trying to be joy for my husband, for my kids ( and it is amazing how my attitude influences everyone around me) I am to live fully, serve fully in this moment for HIM. When I crack, I am forgiven, by HIM. When I think, there is no more in me, it is remembered - HE gives all, it is not within my grasp to give anything, but HE gives all. Grace, Love, Joy. And I am filled up with His love.
10/25/10
God made testosterone.
a friend ( you know who you are) saw a table full of guys and quipped, "that table is full of testosterone" and then wisely commented that was probably not edifying....but what is? Got me to thinking, there are so many put down comments when it comes to groups of ladies or gentleman, don't we want men to have testosterone? to be MEN? don't we want out ladies to get excited over newborn babies? I'm hoping for the day when a table full of testosterone is not a put down but something to be coveted, something to be held in high regard.
This was going to be FB status, until they told me it was too long....do they even realize it took be forever to put it together???
This was going to be FB status, until they told me it was too long....do they even realize it took be forever to put it together???
9/15/10
chilllllllyyyyyy
today is chilly. Not cold, not frigid, just chilly. I'm putting in plea's every once in a while for the wood stove to be lit, but I can't complain as the cook stove IS going and we huddle around it in a warmth inducing stupor.
What I can do is go out and help cut and split some wood, which will do two things. One, it will clean up our hideous back yard/man area that is not suppose to be even looked upon by me for cleaning, flowers or anything outside man world. Two, it will get these jiggly thighs and butt in gear to burn a few precious calories and....make me all warm!
What I can do is go out and help cut and split some wood, which will do two things. One, it will clean up our hideous back yard/man area that is not suppose to be even looked upon by me for cleaning, flowers or anything outside man world. Two, it will get these jiggly thighs and butt in gear to burn a few precious calories and....make me all warm!
9/10/10
9th Anniversary
Today is our 9th year of being married, 10 years to the day when we went on our first very nervous and very long date ( it was over 9 hours...) I think we both knew from the first that we had a very similar drive, interests and all those pleasantries that make a marriage more amiable, but. What attracted me most to my husband was that he was a man bought by God, created by God and submitted to God.
For our special day....we are doing what we love to do! Taking care of our kids, our animals, checking in with our Amish neighbor, ordering potatoes for this winter and relaxing early. We both could not decide on anything more special than this.
Each year finds us closer, we ride the heady heights and crash to the valleys where we need Him to remind us why we are married and to whom, a sinner.
Today at 2am this morning I was foggily awakened ( really anyone seeing me this early in the morning know that you can have an entire conversation with me in which I will nod, give answers, everything - all the while still asleep!) to a very tight hug and a whispered " I love you"
For our special day....we are doing what we love to do! Taking care of our kids, our animals, checking in with our Amish neighbor, ordering potatoes for this winter and relaxing early. We both could not decide on anything more special than this.
Each year finds us closer, we ride the heady heights and crash to the valleys where we need Him to remind us why we are married and to whom, a sinner.
Today at 2am this morning I was foggily awakened ( really anyone seeing me this early in the morning know that you can have an entire conversation with me in which I will nod, give answers, everything - all the while still asleep!) to a very tight hug and a whispered " I love you"
6/15/10
Being Sick
June has been a month to forget so far. Strep throat has been plaguing me for 2 weeks now. On a ranch that already has more work than two people can do, John was also doing cooking duty, shopping, running, taking care of the boys, and on and on ( He is an amazing man). In this I ask "Why me, Lord?" It is at that point of fatigue, pain, lack of sleep that the MAKER is known sometimes more than ever. That point of reaching out and then realizing, HE is there and has been helping you all along.... "Why me" becomes "I am so grateful for your presence"
Which, I AM!
Which, I AM!
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