I'm starving....

For news. Did I mention that we are also fasting from FB? We are, yup, yup, yup. I've never gotten so much done...... yes, I'm missing the news, the tid-bits but really? Is it earth shattering, heart changing, edifying ( only sometimes) stuff that I'm missing out on? Or if I added up all the minutes it would totally make.me.cringe.  Moments are being gained, moments to listen fully, moments to ponder with out distraction, moments of reading books, like my newest one favorite 7: An Experimental Mutiny Against Excess. Check out the video below. She's funny, honest and I like getting deep with simple things.  "Whoever can be trusted with very little can also be trusted with much, and whoever is dishonest with very little will also be dishonest with much." Luke 16:10

Day 2

Its winter and cold. -10 to -15F cold, not including our beloved wind (chill). How is one to include exercise into their routine I ask? Well, a few months ago we were recommended by a customer to try yoga for some back pain we both have had. Wow! Awesome results. From hands that were totally asleep in the morning and a back that literally wakes me up from aching so badly to, well, much better mornings. and days. and nights. Tara Stiles does GREAT YouTube videos, I'm cheap so this works.

My husband said he was starved yesterday. And, its my fault. I'm using MyFitnessPal to track calories and exercise. Yesterday ( I'm totally blaming chocolate levels bottoming out on my mistake) egg was added 3 times instead of one. Woops!  We didn't die. Actually, this is encouraging as what we ate yesterday was good! Never was stuffed and the feeling of hunger reappeared, yay! You appreciate food SO much more now. Which brings me to really  thank God for the food we eat, instead of rushing through the prayer. It really means more. Funny that. Taking away 'more' leads to being thankful for 'less'.

100 Pound Loser

Another weight loss book, right? Same tired dogma, eat less and exercise more.  How many times have I heard this and then tucked into a (big) bowl of chocolate ice cream sure that it must work for others, not me though. I'm tired though of feeling guilty about this body, it is a temple for something very important. 12 years ago, I prayed through tears to Jesus, please,  save me.  Recently, two very special people prayed for the scars of my heart to be healed,  to know how much God loves me. Right now, as I am.

       
Last night I read 100 Pound Loser by Jessica Heights, it is not long, or really astounding. What clicked with me is how she spoke to the very depths of my heart. 10 years ago my primary reason for losing weight was so that guys would look at me. Any guy, I wasn't super particular. My high, or rush came from their approval of my looks. This is SO hard to admit now. What burrows away at my heart now is my time here is finite and the witness that I give can be obstructed by my gluttony. Yes, awful word. Such painful imagery and yet so humbling. How can not go and share the my testimony with others? Today, we ( yes, my super husband is joining me)  have started to rein in unruly eating habits. My goal is 10 lbs a month until my body says it is fit, toned and happy. The Holy Spirit cries out within me to speak out and up.  There is a joy within me that just HAS to come out! My God is an amazing Redeemer.